Lets pray for Hidayah

"The Prophet's mind and heart had indeed been expanded and purified: the burden which pressed on his soul had been removed; and his name exalted in this world and the next. For the righteous man there is no trouble. But is linked with ease and joy; he must strive at every stage, and look to Allah alone as the goal of all his hopes." - Surah Al-Inshirah commentary by Abdullah Yusuf Ali

I begin this post with a verse adapted from the Holy Quran. For the past few weeks, for the past few months to be frank, i have not been in a very good place of mind and heart. I think too much. Mostly about my future and about my career in dentistry. I have been staring at this blank post for more than half a day and I was speechless, thoughtless, typeless. I came back from the clinic, continue staring at this blank post for another half an hour when i realized that I have so much to do at home. But my mind just couldn't tell my body to get up and get going. Instead, i lay down on my bed and just stare at the blank white ceiling, thinking, but nothing came up. I didnt have a clue how I came to this. What has been bothering me lately? Ever since I moved to this small town, I have been alone. I stayed at home alone. At work, although i have same level colleagues, but I just do things on my own. I dont talk to them that much. What happened to me? I kinda became anti-social. I rarely laugh nowadays you know. Sigh.

 

I was invited by the dean of Dental Faculty IIUM in Kuantan Health Campus to join their service as a lecturer (trainee) in the department of Oral Surgery. Though it sounds exclusive, interesting and challenging, but I have always wanted to return home, in Subang Jaya. And yesterday, I was given the news that my application to UiTM as a lecturer trainee was successful. Unfortunately for me, they're putting me in the paediatric dentistry department. When i went to the interview, I managed to show and persuade them how much I love Orthodontics but unluckily for me, the department was fully occupied and they're placing me in a different one instead. Now, I am in the verge of making a decision of my life. My whole life, my whole future, my whole career depends on how i decide NOW. How shall i say this.. its just crazy for me. I feel like i'm carrying the burden of my whole unpredictable future. 

Lets just pray for guidance from Allah subhanawataala for a prosperous successful future. InsyaAllah.

I start blogging again. InsyaAllah.

As the title of blog implies, this is Izzy Ismail first time blogging in thisisizzy blogspot. Full name, izzati nabilah ismail born and raised in Subang Jaya, until i continue my studies in kelantan doing dentistry in usm and now i am proud to be a 100% qualified, paid, scraping, decay fighting anesthesizing, teeth saving dentist in Sarawak, previously in a lovely peaceful city, kuching, and currently, small district cowboy town, betong.

I used to be an active blogger at livejournal a while ago. But it went on hiatus for so long due to busy schedule and lack of things to say. Previously i blogged like a mad person, saying things no one would understand except myself. And i started noticing no one ever reads my blog, hence the quit. I wouldn't dare say myself that i'm a quitter but this is no ordinary quitting. This is just a case where i just went on hiatus for quite a long time.

By the way, did you know people, and i mean common people love to read common blogs about one's daily activities. I find it pretty lame at first until i started doing it recently. I became one of the people who read blogs that gave me no inspiration, no motivation. Simply just useless blogs, i dare say. Some of the blogs i routinely visit are Vivy, Maria, KeikoLynn, and Adriana. Besides their passion towards beautiful and funny things, i have no other common interests, neither do i have anything to do with these beautiful bloggers. They are just some famous bloggers that i found while bloghoping at Vivy's about a year ago and unexpectedly bookmarked them. I now routinely read and check their blogs because I am trying to find something just less meaningful besides my responsibility to the community as a dentist to help myself pass through my long lonely boring hours of stay in Betong. I will soon blog about how it really is over here in this small town. Other blogs that I am head over heels in love with includes, Alfactor, Redza Minhat (the famous Faqir in the Malaysia's Picau Cukur), Hyperbole and last and of course not the least, Dishie, my lovely sister.

Well, my new and improved blogspot is now up and running (sounds like running a business). I came back to the blogging business through a strong influence and motivation by a very good friend of mine. I hope it stays with me through out my life. So that once in a while, I could take a moment and reminisce the significant moments in my life that is blogworthy enough.

PS. This is just a note to myself.