Thank gawd I took a whole week of holiday. A tiring week of basic medical sciences course in UM. Gosh, only if anyone can understand how stressed I am about the course and the exam that is coming up in a few months. A really tiring week full of ups and downs.
The heart desires to be a specialist so badly. Especially after finding out someone i idolize was in the TV discussing about an awesome surgical case. I really wanna be somebody someday. I really do.
Also, the heart is split now. I dont know what happened to me. Had a big fight with my bestfriend. A bestfriend that I have been dedicating this blog to all this while. The bestfriend that encourages me to write a blog whenever I am lonely and lost. The bestfriend that I wanted to tell all my secrets to. But I doubt he reads it now. I doubt he remembers this. But thats not the point.
The point is:
This time its about what I did wrong.
Its about broken promises.
Its about betrayal.
Im afraid of losing him.
Im afraid he wouldnt want me anymore.
And the whole conclusion to this all:
I've go one week holiday to figure this all out. Thank gawd.
